November 14th, 2025
- up early and attempting to work more on inkdiehaven and despite it being 6am not 11pm I'm still feeling a sense of "aaah I don't have time"
- admittedly most of the hours between now and then are not actually available, and I may be interrupted any second
- plus some of what I'm looking at is kind of big stuff
- I think it maybe be quite good if I do the second half of nov as well, to have my publishing deadline just BE 10am not midnight
- that way it can't fuck up my bedtime, and instead I'm encouraged to go to sleep early and wake up
- one of the other things that's happening for me is that part of me really wants to publish these half-drafts of like the many meanings of NNTD and things that ping NNTD but then another part of me is like "but the NNTD name is actually bad tho and I actually want to get on with retiring the NNTD name
- so that's a tension I'm holding
- there's still ofc a very real option to go publish all of this stuff under the old name
- in particular, many-meanings would actually be a good thing to publish as present documentation for retiring
- let's try that for 5mins, see how it feels
- > If you want to make it work, just do it. If you are making a mistake, this will be clear very soon. Have faith. Always do your absolute best.
- faith, faith in a romantic context kinda