Malcolm Ocean's roamblog

July 7th, 2021

edited 2021-07-07 · open in Roam
    • V > shouldn't be like an article
      • should be more of a poem, a song
      • needs to bleed a little out of conventional speech
      • ~ litany of gendlin
    • > Thing learned at school that I’m still unlearning:
    • 1. You only have one chance to do anything, and if you fail you’re either stupid or lazy
    • 2. Asking questions gets you in trouble
    • 3. There’s only one correct way to do things, and it’s up to authority to decide which way it is
    • 4. Your work is only worth as much as the local authority decides it is worth
    • 5. You are only supposed to work on things that are assigned to you
    • 6. You need explicit permission each time you want to do anything that wasn’t specifically assigned to you, including taking a pee
    • 7. Cooperating with other people is cheating
    • 8. Your work doesn’t have to serve any purpose other than measuring how much you’re worth, it will likely be discarded right away
    • 9. You must be smart but not too smart, doing things ahead of the schedule gets you in trouble
    • 10. Knowledge comes from lectures and books rather than experimentation
    • 11. Education has to be serious, if you’re having too much fun you’re going to get grounded
    • 12. Moving your body is forbidden, except for 2h/week when you will be measured on your ability to play ball games
    • there can be only one top performer, and it matters who.
    • You show your work to others/for evaluation only when it's done.
    • it's important to be a "critical thinker", but only about things you've been told to be critical of
    • If you re-use something you've done before, that's cheating
    • corollaries: 1. you can only heal to the level of safety you’re *actually at*

      2. healing is the process of making sure you never return to the less-safe environment, after you’ve left.

      in contrast to trauma, which answers “what’s safest while I’m still inside the unsafe envt”