August 3rd, 2022

I digested some stuff about feeling like I had to earn my right to exist, which seems like a common psych structure

what I ended up with is a sense of like, merely continuing to exist is the baseline of having earned one's right to exist. homeless people are deeply not welcomed by the world but insofar as they are in fact still alive and want to live, they have earned their existence. what we want to do about that collectively is a whole nother question, but there's a sense cosmically in which "I exist" is proof of "I have earned my right to exist" or something.